sigh.

things are not going to get better any time soon, are they? every
single day brings something else to weigh me down.

i have never felt so unlike myself, so disappointed in myself, so
emotionally negative.

moreso, i am sorry for disappointing you, too.

tomorrow is a new day. it has to be.

this is it.

i'm kinda getting sick of myself. being unhappy and acting like the
world's against me. i just want to get over it. i want to spend time
with you and love you and pay attention only to you. to us.

summer is my favorite season and i've barely experienced it. running
in the sweltering heat and two seconds from collapsing does not count.
the beach, swimming, sunshine, thunderstorms, nature. remember those
things? i almost forgot.

reflect.

hey.

suddenly, this has become more of a photoblog. not that i mind. i write here for 3, maybe 4, people. you already know everything.. so, there's never anything new to write. but, the pictures are just something different. i've been using the hipstamatic app on my iphone a lot lately and i like the results. someday, i'll buy a new camera and adobe lightroom and get back into doing everything myself, better. someday..

playing.

tonight.

wet skies.