this is it.

i'm kinda getting sick of myself. being unhappy and acting like the
world's against me. i just want to get over it. i want to spend time
with you and love you and pay attention only to you. to us.

summer is my favorite season and i've barely experienced it. running
in the sweltering heat and two seconds from collapsing does not count.
the beach, swimming, sunshine, thunderstorms, nature. remember those
things? i almost forgot.